An Open Letter to every Citizen of the United States of America

My Fellow Americans,
We the People are engaged in a monumental war. This war has been waging since a little before the turn of the 19th century. This is a war of tradition, morality, virtue, deity and character versus progressivism, relativism, vice, socialism, immorality and perversion. While the latter may not be organized as one entity to wage this war, they none the less are united in a common cause: The total destruction of the individual and his/her freedom to pursue their happiness. This war is not by guns, bullets, swords, bombs and troops. This is a war by words, deeds, and personal involvement. By now, the first casualty of this war has been long since passed. That casualty is the character assassination of our Founding Fathers. Such valiant men, whose memory has been desecrated and marginalized for the sole purpose of rendering our Founding Documents from immortal, inspired, powerful and true to impotent, weathered, relative and weak; in other words, to excuse the erosion of our Republic through immorality and relative personal character.
Our Constitution and the affirmed God given Rights there in are under threat, like no other time in our history. In years past, our enemy – those whom would destroy the Constitution – has been of foreign origin that is from without our Country. Today, the assault is from with our boarders, even from those within our elected body. From the days of our founding, those brave men that signed their death warrant, known as The Declaration of Independence, warned of these abominations in these late days. In my lifetime, there has been one President of the United States of America whom could stand proud, and feel as if he were among peers when met with our Founding Fathers in the heavens above. That would be Ronald Reagan. One must ask oneself, could you see President Obama, Clinton, Bush, Bush, Carter, or Ford look the likes of George Washington, Benjamin Franklin and Thomas Jefferson in the eye and answer that they did uphold and promote the principles of a free republic?
It is not the President of the United States alone, whom must answer to those men in the next life. The legislative branch (Congress) shall also be called to answer for their actions. I dare say that the perverted state of affairs (both personal and of the state) has made Congress as an institution in which there is little or no trust that they – Congress – will do the right thing. This particular part of the war is critical. We are at a moment in time where We the People may in fact can turn the war around and win not only the battle, but win the war. Much like George Washington in the war for our independence, a turning point was reached, when then General Washington took the initiative, and took his enemy by surprise in the winter of 1776 at the battle of Trenton. We now have our opportunity.
On April 15th, 2009 We the People, took to the streets in peaceful protest. We wanted our elected leaders to know of our displeasure of their arrogance and their discontent for the electorate. We let them know in one voice, enough. Alas, our voices were thrown on deaf ears that would not hear. Since that time we have had a President take powers that are not rightfully his and a congress willing to give him those powers, or at least simply not willing to oppose him. We have has legislation that is not only bad for America, but for the world at large. We have had out of control spending, a plummeting dollar, skyrocketing unemployment, stagnant wages, unproductively, unprecedented governmental takeovers of private industries, elimination of personal freedoms and liberties, and a new debt so large, there possibly is no way to ever repay it. In fact, this debt is so large that earliest independent estimates to repay this crushing debt will take up to three generations of Americans having more than half their total income confiscated for this debt.
I understand your plight. With all the information now available, apathy seems the only route to maintaining one’s sanity. Ask yourself this question: are you willing to enslave your posterity to pay a crushing debt, unable to pursue their happiness, eliminate their freedom and liberty that this government, as currently constituted may have their power? On this the 233 anniversary of the signing of the Declaration of Independence, are you ready to protect and defend the Constitution of the United States of America, from enemies foreign and domestic? Are you willing to stand, alone if necessary to declare right over that which is wrong? Are you willing to be called a racist, bigot, homophobe, etc… in the preservation of freedom? Are you willing to be arrested, placed in jail – a political prisoner – for the protection of liberty? Are you willing to die, that generations hence will live in liberty and freedom that they may live to pursue their happiness? We once had people in this great land of ours that would. Today we call them patriots.
God Bless us all. God help us all.

A very concerned citizen,
The Knight Hawk

When it rains, it pours...

So on my Facebook account, I did announce that I have Type II Diabetes. This was quite some shock, as I have been relatively health most (other than my "gross obesity")most of my life. This is has been some adjustment. I am learning all the fun side effects, redo all my eating habits, and adjusting to new medication. The most fun is the race to the bathroom as I pretend I have a faucet attached to my rear end.

But that's not enough, our IT serviceman deleted ALL our files at work. He's recovering the data now, however, I have nothing to do. That happened Wed. nite. So I can't work, my time from the first is gone, I don't get paid for non work, and money is running very short. I am in real trouble here.

All these stresses, are not helping my body, which reacts poorly when I have this kind of real problems. My tendency is to get several boxes of Little Debbie's Brownies, and indulge as many as possible, as quickly as possible. Now with the diabetes that options out. Though irony would be suicide by an over indulgence in Little Debbie Brownies.

Odd things keep happening....

While I sit and worry of potential disasters that are to hit our country, there are side trips off that path which I have chosen for my life. God has this interesting knack of correcting my course, when I so choose to leave his course. These deviations from his course are not without consequence. In fact most often, in my experience, the consequences of being off of his path are forever life altering, and life long lasting.

I chose some years ago to marry a young woman, whom I love passionately, and whom I thought reciprocated that love back. I was tragically wrong on nearly all counts. This disaster, while minor in the long term, but devastating at the time, has had lasting impact on me. At the time of our divorce, she swore in an affidavit that we had no children, nor were expecting children between us. Five months later, a dear friend called to announce the birth of my daughter. This has haunted me since, though not in the way one might think.

All my life has been dedicated to first my God, then my Wife, and then my Kids. Everything else pales in comparison. Indeed, I have been fired for choosing family over work. I made that choice, and have never regretted it at all. For me, family is the greatest institution endorsed and sanctioned by God. That literally means that the Family is a sacred unit. I as the man, am responsible for that unit. Through this perspective I view all the world. Therefore it has always pained me that I have never seen my daughter, other than a single polorid about three months after her birth. Because of the nature of the breakup between my Z-wife and myself, I was cause to believe that I was not the father and sued for a paternity test. The result was 97.8% positive. It actually broke my heart, and my anger and bitterness to my X-wife and women in general deepened.

Over the years, I have researched my X-wife, daughter, and her daughter, that I was to someday adopt. I found my X-wife, and today I found her oldest daughter online. I have very mixed feelings. Do I start a dialog that hasn't occurred in over 15 years? Do I leave sleeping dogs lie? My nature is to stir up that hornets nest, and watch the ensuing chaos. I suppose that the best thing to do is ponder and pray, and perhaps someday, God willing, I will have a relationship with my daughter that is unclouded by the years of my X's indoctrination of the person she perceived me to be.

There's only been two whom I loved enough to dedicate all that I am to them. The first one so kindly left me on our first year wedding anniversary, leaning a looming distrust of all women in general, and a hollow bitterness inside. It took years to forgive her, and more years to become fully trustful of women.

The second, is the gal to whom nearly 14 years ago consented to be my bride for all eternity. There isn't much I can say that would be adequate to the task of expressing my love, devotion and gratitude of my best friend, and if the English language indeed have the proper words for the occasion, my skill with words would only mock the tender and deep feelings I have for my wife.

The other women and young ladies with whom I was infatuated have slowly but surely reunited with me through one website or another. I shall not name them. I am certain that each and every one of them had absolutely no idea that I ached inside just to be in the same room, though like so many obese boys with a personality to compensate for my short comings, merely blended into the blurred background. For years I was in that position, dreaming of someday having the courage to have a relationship with any one of those gals, but never summoning the courage to do so. As a result, I indeed had exactly three dates in high school.

Even better, it wasn't until the second half of my Freshman year of college that I even had a girlfriend. I tried to be with one particular gal who live on campus, but was thwarted by several other guys and the infamous "I just want to be friends." If there was ever a cause of impotence in men, it's that line right there. Someone might as well pull our a nude picture of Hellen Thomas. It's an arousal Kryptonite. Well, I married that girl friend, and she became the x-wife. (I didn't know she was crazy, until I met someone normal, like my wife.)

I reminisce of these times, as I have said in a previous post, because of Facebook. For those of you women whom I fantasized of whom my deepest desire was to be with you, I am sorry I did not have the courage to be the man I should have been, nor the physique that would attract you to me. The fact of the matter is I have always been fat, obese, huge and otherwise grotesque. It is something I have finally come to terms. It's a part of me, and the source of my sardonic / sarcastic sense of humor. I have oft though if this brain was in that body of mine then... and of all the things I could have been... but that game is almost useless, unless it motivates you to be a better you tomorrow.

Alas, being the odd man out, was a perpetual position, a situation seemingly sentenced to singleness and solitude. (say that three times fast). Back to the present and or future, I am struggling with hope. My career is halted, and if things don't improve VERY soon, it will retreat. Though I would love to chat over my current personal project, prudence prevents this revelation. When the appropriate time comes, (and I would love that to be very soon) I will make a public announcement. It will indeed hit Utah by storm, and very well could make an impact in so many lives as to remain uncounted. Or, it will be a total, colossal, great and complete failure. (keep thinking those cheerful thoughts). As before, time draws short, and it is time for bed. (as I raise my cup) so here is to a better tomorrow, may the government do absolutely nothing!!!

KH

It's been a while...

For the relatively few of you that actually take the time to read my little unimportant blog, I have yet something else. In essence, my mind is a scatter. I have focused like a laser on a personal project for the last year and a half. Today was the first step in achieving that particular goal. Because of all the buildup emotion and hard work came to a relative head today, the emotional release and required satisfaction was somewhat lacking. Thus I find myself lacking in that focus. Perhaps I need to step back a little and take a breather. What I really need to do, is make a to do list and then prioritize it. In all actuality, there is so much to do, that is seems overwhelming. However, just like eating the cliched elephant, I just have to take it one bite at a time. It's just a little hard with my A.D.D. personality.

Speaking of A.D.D. - Tomorrow is tax day. It is also the collective Tea Party day. I don't know that I will be attending one. I thought I might, however, it comes at a bad time of day, and I live rather a far distance from it. Also, while others push forward in the effort to make our employees (i.e. politicians) listen to us, this is just the line drawn in the sand. All I personally want, is a true return to the Constitution of the United States of America, not some interpretive narrative limp wristed or bastardization of it. To those thieves on Capitol Hill and at 1600 Pennsylvania Ave., would you kindly leave us the hell alone. Stop spending, stop taxing, stop, STOP, STOP!!!! My kids, grandchildren and great grandchildren can never repay the crushing debt that we are accumulating now. I have called my Senators and Representative. I have emailed them. The ONLY response is a letter from my Rep. that basically states, "F-U, you don't know enough to question me". I dare say that my I.Q. is at least twice his, but that's not saying much if my estimated I.Q. of him is about 40.

Finally, Facebook. I don't know if I like it all that much anymore. I recently had someone look me up. This presented a problem. This particular gal broke my heart, but then, she never really knew how I felt about her. I was such a coward then, and never knew what courage it took to pursue the happiness of female companionship (and I am not talking sex). At the end of my senior year of high school, I finally gathered the courage to ask her to Grad Night at Disneyland. She accepted. What I didn't expect, was that halfway though the evening, I was abandoned when she found her boyfriend there. Crushed, I cruised Disneyland the rest of that evening alone or the "odd man out". I was miserable. What made it worse, is that including this trip to Grad Night, I had a total of three dates in High School. First was Home Coming at a new school as a Junior. Second was the one gal I waned to be with most, taking her to Phantom of the Opera, (Senior Year) only to never hear from her again. My dating average was a perfect 0 for 3. Going into college I had absolutely no confidence in having any kind of relationship with the opposite sex whatsoever. What I didn't realize at the time, was that was preparatory for the really big ditch of my x-wife when she left me on our first year wedding anniversary. The shock of abandonment wasn't nearly as devastating as it could have been because of being left alone and very lonely in Disneyland. Ironically, I haven't though about any of this for years, until yesterday, when she got a hold of me on Facebook. I also reflected that I was a rather great nobody in High School. I had, but few friends. This translated to college as well. However the few friends that I have, seem to make it a life time of friendship. It still strikes me as rather odd, that after years of believing that I had almost no impact on anyone's life, that many would let me know that over time, I had in some measure influenced for good or evil others. I think that these two events are the root of my total paranoia of being abandoned by my (current) wife. I know it's totally silly. I mean we have been married nearly 14 years. If she were leave me for any one of my plethora of faults, it would have happened by now.

Well I ranted enough for now, and it's bed time. The real shame of it all is I know I am the ONLY ONE that will read this in a few weeks time and think, "What exactly in thee hell were you thinking?" I am realy good at kicking myself around for a good long time.

KH

And the storm builds....

Well, once again I write for no one. The last Tower of freedom is crumbling from within. This week past, once again the cowards of smart placed an even larger burden on our children, grand children and great grand children. HR 1 - "The American Recovery and Reinvestment Act of 2009" passed the conference report in both the House and Senate. The CBO (Congressional Budget Office)calculated no growth from this, and even more pain for the American people. For those representatives and Senators that were being inundated from their employers, i.e. those whom they represent, shut off lines of communication because they did not want to hear it from the masses. Effectively, we the people were disenfranchised. Not that we are particularly surprised, however, it's no less infuriating. How dare they. If I refused a direct appeal from my employer, it would be exactly the time it took to collect my personal gear and get out of the building before I was invited never to return. For every Representative and Senator that did just that, they should head home and face those constituents and explain why they refused their calls. I know I would love to talk to my Representative live on television and when their story is told tell them exactly what bullshit it is.

There is a great problem in our country, no one, and I mean no one trusts the government. The government is too big, to cumbersome, to involved in individual lives. Reading the founding documents of this country, it was intended for the individual to work out their individual prosperity, in the manner best suited by that individual. In other words, the government was never meant to provide anything other than defense, justice, laws and community of equality. Today, the government thanks to politicians are promising prosperity to any willing to accept their terms. They propel the problem by creating an atmosphere where conducting commerce is difficult at best, and in the eyes of many politicians - criminal at worst. Anyone not subscribing to the all mighty government for physical and spiritual needs is perceived to be a traitor.

I oft return to the first paragraph of the Declaration of Independence. "When in the course of human events it becomes necessary for one people to dissolve the political bands which have connected them with another and to assume among the powers of the earth, the separate but equal station the Laws of Nature and Nature's God, to decent respect to the opinions of mankind requires that they should declare the causes which impel them to the separation." Boiled down to the layman, we have the right, and duty to rebel when we are oppressed. I know that government computers are reading this now, and I don't care. I not yet advocating revolution, rather I warn that there is one coming soon if our benevolent dictators of 435 Representatives, 100 senators, 7 Supreme justices and one President don't change course, keeping "We the People" from determining their own course. A victory of only 52 some odd percent is not license to ram rod any whim, even if it is the first black President in US History.

A revolution now, would be costly in blood, and spirit. Anyone reading the conditions of the first revolution will start to see spooky yet familiar trends. There is a general low level of discontent. Our representatives remain distant from the masses in a surprising way considering just how quickly information is spread these days. The next couple of key indicators of our oppressive government will be the control of fire arms, religion, money (gold) and health care.

Economically, we are in deeper trouble than we realize. Last week, another key indicator started which proceeds every round of inflation. Gold and Silver are starting to be bought by countries and companies. This means that Gold and Silver are starting to spike. Gold is on the move is the standard term. The question will be how long before hyper inflation starts. If there is a shortage of food in the US combine with hyper inflation, there could be a breakdown of society, as people that have no food start to move on those "fanatics" that have food storage. Those that were like the ants when the grasshopper played will be charged of hoarding, rather than being cautious and prepared. Hopefully, those with food storage, will also have the means to protect themselves and their property, (i.e. food). Of course, this is the "worst case scenario" - but when it take a victory or loss of a team to have mass riots in the streets, I don't think a food shortage wouldn't cause one.

Mexico is on the verge of collapse. Even better, our southern boarder is as wide open as ever. One would have a better chance of stopping the rain with their mind than protect our boarders with the resources, procedures, directives and political tactics that are currently in place. I fear that Texas will not tolerate such conditions much longer. Even better, last calendar year, there were over 100 people caught crossing our southern boarder, of Arab decent. If this doesn't cause pause, let me spell it out for you. Al Queda is till out there, wanting to destroy the US. This is not opinion, it is fact. They are probing our boarders and finding our weaknesses. The scenario could play like this: an event like that of 9-11, where it is found that the Mexican Boarder was the source of infiltration. I don't think there would be any law or penalty for breaking it that would stop Texans from protecting their boarder. As we speak there is an incredible drug war taking place on both sides of the boarder. Kidnappings from San Diego to Phoenix are taking place. They are demanding ransoms cash equivalent to the lost drugs to the DEA for the freedom of human beings. Even as recently as last November, law enforcement in North Mexico suffered a tragic blow as these barbarians beheaded members of law enforcement. We are witnessing evil on an unprecedented scale at our door step - and our benevolent government does exactly nothing.

And finally the best news of all, Iran has entered the space race. They can deliver a communications satellite to space in a intercontinental two stage ballistic missile. In a completely unrelated story, Iran has the technology and intelligence to make a nuclear war head. Add the rhetoric of their looney toons President Mahmood Ahmadinijahd, who regularly calls to hasten the delivery of the promised one. For Christians, this promised one is eerily like the one described as the Anti-Christ. In order for that to happen, they - the leaders of Iran believe that they must destroy the "Little Satan" - Israel and the "Big Satan" - The United States of America. Stir this up in a cauldron (the world), bring to a boil (chaos), add a pinch of hate, and what do you get?

One definition of insanity is to continue an action expecting a different result. I tried over and over to contact my "leaders", representatives, etc... to no avail. I tried it with the first bail out. I have tried it on several occations, with the same result. So why would I continue in an effort I know is fruitless. The answer is I have given up. Eventually, they will come for me, because I think differently, and alone I will stand. Will I have the courage to fight, giving my life, fortune and sacred honor to the holy cause of freedom. Who knows?

The Knight Hawk

Chump Change You Can Believe In....

I just read an article on the current "stimulus" bill. It reads as follows:
"...The $500-per-worker credit for lower- and middle-income taxpayers that Obama outlined during his presidential campaign was scaled back to $400 during bargaining by the Democratic-controlled Congress and White House. Couples would receive $800 instead of $1,000. Over two years, that move would pump about $25 billion less into the economy than had been previously planned.

Officials estimated it would mean about $13 a week more in people's paychecks when withholding tables are adjusted in late spring. Critics say that's unlikely to do much to boost consumption."

Source: My Way News http://apnews.myway.com/article/20090212/D96A0AGO0.html

$13 per week? Oh Goodie, now mom can have that operation!!! These (insert your favorite series of profanities here) in Washington D.C. have just stole our individual liberty in the name of economic recovery, while ensuring economic disaster. Thank the Almighty above for these politicians for enslaving my children, grand children and great grand children to a crushing debt that will be paid in their lifetimes. That addition of $13 dollars a week equates to nothing more than 1 and a 1/2 dozen donuts (which I don't buy anyway).

I feel better already

The Knight Hawk